Lately I've taken a look at myself and realized that I can be a rather unpleasant person to be around.
I find that at home I often create drama where drama isn't needed or automatically roll out a whiny comment when my mother asks me to come to the kitchen. I will pick fights with my father over anything when I often should just shut my mouth and let him say what he wants to say. After all, he is my parent and I really have no right to constantly try and overrule him, even when I disagree.
It's not just the people around me that are affected by this, though - it's myself too. Negative attitudes around my family lead to an overall negative attitude with my own life. Everything always turns into a "worst case scenario" for me rather than a "best case scenario." As I'm sure some of you have no doubt noticed, I spend a lot of my time inside of my mind, caught up in my own thoughts, feelings, and perceptions that are often way beyond what's really happening. I think that if someone did a test on my brain the waves would be off the charts 50% of the time.
This week I will work on finding peace in everything I do. I don't want these last three weeks leading up to the state fair and then college to be filled with grim outlooks, worries, and shaky relationships with my parents. I don't want that. College could very well turn me into a nervous wreck for the first couple of weeks, so if I can find some stability beforehand, then it will help me a thousandfold.
