Within the past 30 hours, I have experienced three more "lasts" of my high school career. Last (and also first) state mock trial, last National Honor Society ceremony, and last FFA banquet.
The past three days have just whizzed by. It's been stress, a little more stress, some joyous moments, some intense situations in a courtroom, some good food (SPAGHETTI WORKS AHHHHHH), some moments in a hotel pool where I utterly failed at swimming, an award for Outstanding Witness(!), some more stress, lots of photos on Facebook, some more stress, and... tears.
Why the tears? Why is it that with all of this excitement around me I'm crying over the past? Tonight, I just looked around after the FFA banquet and nearly bawled. Is it because I'm meeting the reality that my high school experience is indeed coming to an end soon? Or is it something else?
I think that the bottom line is that my senior year has been such a fantastic, amazing year that I've started comparing it to earlier years in high school, and in many ways I feel as though I didn't make the most out of those years. I'm not sure if that's really true or just something I'm telling myself... but from the organizations I've been in and the fun I've had to the time I've spent with my best friends and the experience of having Jesus in my heart... all of these events in my senior year have made for one of the best periods of my life.
While God always puts us through tests and trials from time to time, He has presented me with one of the best periods of my life, and although there's all of that stress wedged in there, the stress only holds up the foundation of these amazing experiences that I'm having before I move on to the next phase of life.
The tears are not there because it's over... but because it happened.
I've just never stepped back and realized how eternally blessed I am to have the people in my life that I do. And in this moment, I'm coming to realize that God doesn't guarantee tomorrow, so I need to soak up everything that's happening in this moment.
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