Update

It's been forever since I blogged, so I figured it was about time to throw some stuff out there.

The week has started off shakily; lots of ups and downs and lots of new stress added to my life. With orientation at Iowa in two weeks, it's time to get ready for that. For me, it means practicing for my solo audition for marching band. Additionally, I recently learned that I'm a semi-finalist for an Iowa-specific scholarship, so I have to be interviewed at orientation. The idea of all of that going on in just a few days isn't exactly appealing to me...

At home, things are constantly bouncing around. One day, my parents drive me off of the walls and I want nothing more than to get out of this house. Other days, we bond. One thing that seems constant though with all of the days is that I just feel out of place. I don't like sitting here at home every day. I enjoyed that last summer, but last summer was under totally different circumstances than now. I just feel like everyone I know is going on trips and having a real social life every day and night while I'm cooped up in my hole. That's not how I wanted to spend my summer before college at all.

Still, I do manage to find oases (that's plural for oasis...) of joy. This Thursday night I play in the Oskaloosa City Band, which is always a good time. Friday night I plan to go out to eat with friends, and I'm also hoping for the usual home church this weekend. As long as I can keep some contact with civilization in my life, I won't go crazy over the next three months.

That's my beginning-of-June update.

Let's just say that I'm hoping for some significant change by the end...