About a week ago I was telling myself that I would hate going up to State FFA Convention. I forced myself to believe that, and so I spent the entire week dreading it.
However, when I went up that Sunday night, I told myself that I would make the most of it even though I had no friends up there to talk to. And... for the most part, I had a good time! I met a few new people and listened to a lot of good speakers. We ate at Culver's twice (yum!!!), Hickory Park (YUMMMMM!) and had an intense ride on I-80; the pouring rain was so hard that we couldn't see a thing. And I got my Iowa FFA Degree, which is kind of a neat accomplishment.
I admittedly was longing my hometown for most of the time, though. I just miss being around people that I really care about.
My attitude when I got home went from relaxation to super-max-stress mode in about ten minutes. I got on my laptop and saw that I had numerous e-mails. A few of them were from a scholarship lady who can't open a thank-you video that I sent her. So now I have to deal with that. The housing people at Iowa still haven't e-mailed me back about my issue, so that's one more thing I have to figure out. To be honest, I would feel so much better about the upcoming year if I just had the housing stuff settled, and as of right now I don't. And that completely drives me insane.
Add on the make-up work and the graduation speech that I have two and a half weeks to write, and I was fuming. I even did a major rant to my mother.
But then I realized... what good is any of this stressing doing? I need to just take one thing at a time. I have a few days to figure out the housing stuff before the deadline hits. The lady who e-mailed me was very nice and I'm sure that she's not going to be mad if I don't get the scholarship video in on time. I can think of something to write for my speech; my FFA advisor even offered to help me out.
It's all about my attitude. If I keep stressing over every little thing, then I'm going to have no time to enjoy my last two and a half weeks of high school.
I changed my attitude towards state convention, and it ended up being fun! Now I just need to do the same with everything else.
You can do it Tyler! The stress is going to be there but how you handle it will be determined by your attitude! Enjoy writing the speech! Enjoy looking back but remember, you aren't going that way...
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