Turning the Page

What a weird week this has been.

First of all, it hasn't even felt like a week. It feels like I'm having a continuous weekend that is strung together by a few exams that I have to take. And for the record, I'm fairly certain that I've pulled off a B+ in Calculus. I will find out in a few days, but refer back to some of my previous blog posts to see how egregiously worried I have been about it...

Second, I'm having a little trouble realizing that in about 36 hours, I will have completed my first semester at the University of Iowa. It feels sort of surreal. A year ago at this time, I couldn't even begin to imagine how on earth I would manage in a place that was *gasp* not New Sharon! I'm still kind of laughing at how stressed out I was. Granted, I'm still always stressed out about something, but damn it, I love my university and I've loved the experience so far. Bring on Chapter 2.

Speaking of my hometown... I will always like my hometown. It will always bring back nostalgia. But I'm honestly not looking forward to returning to it. I love a few of the people there. I like the fact that my bed will always be my bed (this is actually a big deal, because even though I'm calling my dorm room home, the bed still doesn't feel right for some reason). But it's not my life anymore. And it feels as though I am putting on some hat for four and a half weeks where I pretend to revert back to my previous lifestyle even though that's going to be literally impossible.

I'm also just going through a lot of odd heartaches and angers right now. Most of them are little petty things that I can get over in time, but at one point I had an awful lot of negativity directed towards God, and even though I can say now that this was wrong, reaching that point on Monday night was kind of scary. I am working to get back on track after this faltering early in the week, but prayers would still be appreciated.

If you're reading this blog and you will be in New Sharon over Christmas break, I would much appreciate catching up. Because if there's one thing that I can hold onto with the New Sharon community, it is the few amazing people who I will always be connected to because of it.